Did Some yard work over the Weekend

What do you think??...are the flowers a bit much???...LOL...Joe

I lost my blog!!!!

Had to upload a pictue to find it again. All is well with me, and I am re-building my life currently. love, Joe

my baby

So where from here?

Just finishing a very satisfying session with my guitar, I don't know why, but it always seems that I play the most meaningful and poignant music when I'm alone. Maybe someday I'll be able to share this gift with the world, but for now it does provide me some solace. Still waiting for the pain of my loss to set in full force...I came home and cried a little, but not nearly the full measure, this I know, for the loss of my partner and soul mate. I keep catching myself saying "we have" and "we always", and then it rings back to me deep inside that there is no more "we" to be had. It is so disheartening, that all I can do is pour my soul out in music and writing at this point in the hope that I can find some semblance of peace and order to this world of ours. I know that I am still loved in this world, and that my Barbara continues to love me, but am still scared that I will be able to withstand this horrible change in my life that God has chosen for me. Maybe he's taken the best people in this world first in approach of the apocalypse? This is one of the thoughts in my head. possibly it is just fate that the best people are passing out of my world, but it still nags at me that I've lost my freind and mentor, Ken Ritchey, my father, whom I love dearly to this day, and certainly not least but ESPECIALLY devastating, my wife and mate Barbara. So where to from here? I'm currently drunk, I'm sad to say ( I know, you didn't wish this path on me Baby, but I find it dulls my mind somewhat and allows me to rise above the halted need to release my emotions and truly free my mind at this point, so for this I AM SORRY, but I do feel I need this release). In any event, I write to this world of ours that I hope that everyone knows that a wondrous soul has passed among us, my wife and lover and more than anyone could imagine,Barb. God bless you and Keep you near my love. I know he sees you for what you are..the best....Love, J

both sad and happy today

My loving wife Barbara passed away this morning at 10 a.m., in the arms of her Mother, at the Harwood Hospice House. She struggled so hard last night, but I am comforted in knowing that her suffering and pain are over. love to all, Joe

My Love and the Hospice House

My loving wife Barb was transferred from our home to the Mandrin Hospice House on Monday of this week. She has been settling in, and gradually we are bringing her pain under control. The photos in the post below are some shots that I took of the house where she is. It's really a beautiful place, and she has care from the staff around the clock. She has family with her as well as myself essentially on a constant basis, and will continue to. God Bless the readers of this post, and remember to take the time to love the people around you every chance you get, I have been so fortunate in my life, and continue to be so...Joe

The Hospice House